Advait Sanjay Nair

 Well, it's been quite some time since I posted anything here. Reasons for my coming back are- 1. I also stopped diary writing and forgot to get the one I maintained with me to Italy. 2. If my diary is left home and found by someone, by the nature of human curiosity it gets read so might as well write stuff here. 3. I am feeling a little lost for some days and thought this might help get my mind back in its place. Some things that should be known, and have occurred since the last post- 1. I got accepted to study medicine at UNIVPM in Italy. So I am a med student now. 2. Naturally, I am in Italy. 3. I am alone and finding my way through life as an individual, so that's fun... Anatomy is kind of difficult, especially since the Professor doesn't upload slides until she is done with the entire topic, hence revisiting concepts the same day is a bit of an issue. Also, it is complex. Biochemistry is very boring, since its 80% the same stuff as grade 11 and 12 but in more detail an...

 This rainy, rainy, rainy day, The pitter-patter, pitter-patter,   The smell of wet soil and clay. The jumping frogs and leaping toads,  Which dance and play all around. The children in their colorful coats, Laughing and playing on dirt mounds. All people jocund on this day, Playing, laughing and saying 'Hurray'. And yet some on the couches lay, Snacking and lounging on this rainy day. --Advait Nair

 It is not easy to kill a tree, It is quite strong you know. Holding on with all its might, By the ages it's been burrowing deep below. Its a living creature too,  And with time grows stronger and fatter. Building a strong, tough hide, Which is not easy to shatter. Man being a fool tried, Attacking the body so huge and mighty. All day he worked hard but still He could only give it a scar. He came back again to increase the strain, Brough some tech and tools too. But surprised he stared at the wound, Which should have been on the bark. It healed and niw jeeringly sneered, At the furious man so naive. The tree had know and grown in the world, Long before the man was alive. -Advait Nair

 I've mentioned the guy who inspired me to start journaling here, though I haven't really done that since the post of my restart. He himself hosts a Github log of sorts and the latest post I found interesting and would love to continue upon. In 2022, I had written an article titled "Perspectives' in my personal notebook, and reading his post today I remembered of that article. I had jotted down about perspectives and how life changes drastically through them. Also how fascinating it would be to view oneself in 3rd person. Would we feel the same pity we feel for ourselves then? Would I even look like the person I make myself to be? And what makes something wrong or right in essence when everything is just a action that may or may not have a significant reaction? These were some of the questions I had tried to figure out in the log. He mentioned not being the user but the product.( He looks at things from a coders eye, everything is a code to him, at least I think) And t...

  In a world where dreams take flight, Beneath the velvet sky so bright, Whispers of the stars ignite, A symphony of silent night. Moonlight dances on the sea, Waves of silver, wild and free, In the whispers, we can see, A glimpse of what our lives could be. Close your eyes, embrace the glow, Let your heart’s true wishes show, In this moment, let it flow, The magic only night can know. Dreamers, wanderers, gather near, Feel the stardust, cast your fear, In the whispers, loud and clear, The universe speaks, for those who hear. -- Advait Nair

 NEET is on 4th May. Im feeling pretty scared, anxious, nervous.. and more. Prep could be better, it always can. I've practiced doing it with OMR once.. Tbh idk what to do rn. I dont feel like doing anything, yet I feel the need to study evrything and and remebering all the stuff I dont know. Feels trash tbh. I genuinly want to get a govt seat, but am feeling underprepared. There aint much I can do about it now anyway. Welp, tata, hopfully I'll have done great in NEET the next time I write.  Bui