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Soo, hi guys! I have come back today to write. I don't have any topic to rant about or to elaborate about but I just felt like writing. I have an exam tomorrow yet I am writing this because I'm kinda bored. And as I think I have studied enough, even though that's not true. Why do we... I don't remember how to finish that sentence as I just left it and am back after 3 days. Well, my next exam is math and that is on the day after tomorrow. Math is the one subjects that haunts me in my dreams and even when I'm awake. Yet, it is the subject I must do good in or else, bye bye future. I was also selected for a super special extra class by the school to hone my skills. Turns out it is only for Hindi and that I need to be at school an hour early for extra Hindi class. Makes me feel less smart as I had thought it would be for all subjects. Its all just messed up man. Like I know I have to study hard and like crazy or else life will be very tough for me. And that me studying well also influences my parents life. But still, its a little difficult. See, I learn in a different way that the general crowd. I grasp topics through the teaching itself and can remember about 80% of what's taught in class and answer questions based on it in my own words. But  the issue is during exam times, you need to write what is given word to word and I cannot just learn stuff by heart. I prefer to understand topics and implement them, so at many a times it gets difficult for me to score marks. And we live in world where marks are basically everything, until you are in the real field when suddenly you must know how to do your work and also be creative about. Though this kind of thinking won't get you anywhere in school and college. Anyway, I think that's enough for today. 

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Advait. Nair

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